To the Man I Love

I do not remember the first time we met, and I am quite sure I did not love you at first sight.
But over the years I learned to love you, and the feeling just grew and grew, and since then each day wasn't complete without seeing you.

I made you gifts, little tokens that were intended to make your realize, I was thinking of you all day, and that I was waiting excitedly until you come home.  And when you arrived, we would chat a little while you got dressed, and you would always ask me how my day was.  I would then tell you how my day had been, as if the course of my day was really worth telling.

After dinner weeknights were spent mostly in front of the TV, you would watch basketball or whatever series you followed, while I asked  little questions here and there, begging for attention. And when I got sleepy, you would always follow me to the bedroom and tuck me in.  Like in any movie cliche, you would cover me with a blanket and sing me to sleep.

At that early age, I knew and felt for sure, that you were the only man who would love me unconditionally.  I've made a lot of mistakes and disappointed you many times but your love never waned.  I was saddest when I felt I have wronged you and I was happiest when you felt proud of me.

Our last conversation was about the future.  I was talking about my career plans and how my decision to move would be good for me.  As usual, you were very supportive and told me to follow my heart. We also talked about your homecoming and how excited I was to spend more time with you.

Less than a week after that, you left for good, without saying goodbye.  And that moment, had been the greatest heartache for me.  I did not know how to pick my self up, because you were the only person who always did that for me.  But I had to deal with what was before me, and gathered all my strength to face that tragedy.

It's been four years Dad.  There has been a lot of difficult times but your love for me has kept me strong.  I do not brush away the tears when they well up; I do not hide the fact that I still cry when I think of you.  And I am not ashamed to admit that our love story did not end happily, because I know that you went off to a better journey.   And more importantly, no matter how abrupt our separation was, you left me with enough love in my heart to sustain me, all the years of my life.    

Happy Fathers' Day Daddy.